have you ever felt like you're an idiot, just because a teacher gave you a bad grade in something you're really good at?...

I really feel like I'm an asshole or stupid or something

It's... so... strange... kind of

AND NO I'M NOT THE SUICIDAL SHIT TYPE, just, I kinda feel like trash when someone I look up to thinks I'm some kind of bad person.

I don't even feel worthy of being loved by my not-boyfriend[WHOA SIREE, AM I PATHETHIC? HUH? ahahaha xD- on a note, I really lol'd here]... anyways, he's so GASP-AWSM that I feel he's in like, another level, one which I can't reach, and I don't want to bring him down with me.

I just dunno
Still, I will try and give all my best for this last two weeks in school and see what happens, which, you guys shouldn't worry, I got a 20+ point-card for any class, so I'm not risking failing any subjects, still, the way the teacher told me the things I did were not right, oh! and, let's not forget, there was this other class, where a teacher told me I was really annoying, that even some classmates said "this" and "that", and that nobody wanted to do group projects with me, that sometimes... let me try to say this just about the way she said it, it was "sometimes, we have to keep quiet because the rules of society say it, so we can work together more easily"... so yeah, all that made me feel like I'm some kind of retarded douchebag that steals candy from babies.

oh and the 29 this month is my birthday, I usually don't make a deal about it, but since I remembered it, why not tell you guys? haha, nonetheless, I'm not expecting anything, so don't worry about it, it's not like I'm "WAH WAH, NOBODY EVER GIVES ME ANYTHING", no, I have gotten some things, loved all of them, but still, I just don't expect things because that way you don't get dissapointed.

well, that's all for now
for those who [tl;dr]:
-I'm just in a "I feel like crap, I only do crap" mood
-Birthday on 29/11 not expecting anything

TOODLE-OOS